I have this ridiculous insecurity about still being a virgin. And the more my virgin comrades (This sounds ridiculous but I can't think of a better way to say it, lulz) lose their virginity, the more I get worked up. It makes me sick to my stomach with jealousy, frankly. Still being a virgin at 25 makes me feel unlovable, ugly and worthless. I have such issues with men that have yet to be worked on so I know rationally that I'm not still a virgin because no one wants to be with me. I'm just so unconfident as a person and a female that I haven't been able to facilitate any kind of relationship with guys at all.

But still, I honestly could care less about being in a ~good relationship or losing my virginity to someone I loved or cared about. I just want to get it over with. Stop being obsessed with still being a virgin at my age. Ugh. I hate this.